I hopped on my blog today to write about how off-kilter my focus had been when I started taking the Christian Worldview class I’m currently enrolled in. I was so focused on passing, with an A. So completely missing the point. And I so have changed that focus now.
And then I realized I already wrote about this.
But things have developed further so I’m going to go there again.
Every time I log into the class discussion board these days, I do it with an intentional mindset of entering a mission field, and a heartfelt prayer that the Holy Spirit will give me the words He wants me to say.
As a result, I find myself erasing a lot of comments before I post them. Or sometimes doing major edits right after I do post them.
Because I really love to be snarky, and when I’m surrounded by those with a similar worldview, I relax and the snark just finds it way out. I mean, I’m usually making a good point. I’m usually telling the truth. But, as many of you have figured out, if I can make it humorously, I’ll opt for that route.
This can pay off. Or it can crash and burn when someone fails to catch the snarky tone and takes me seriously.
So as I said, a lot of editing.
This is really good for me. It’s bleeding over into my personal life. It’s like I’m waking up and realizing that I only get 24 hours in a day, and there are a lot of people walking around with giant holes in their hearts that could be healed by Jesus if they only knew…. and I could tell them… so why would I waste those precious 24 hours on cheap laughs or self-aggrandizement or furthering my own agenda of garnering approval?
Well, I can tell you why. It boils down to satisfying my own selfish desires. It works pretty well, too, until some textbook comes along that blows the whistle on that and points out that if God’s love is characterized by sacrifice, so should mine be.
Hypothetically speaking, one understands. It’s not like I spent a 2-hour flight squirming in my seat because the only reading material I had brought with me was that textbook and God knew He had a captive audience and man, is it me, or is it getting hot in here? Or anything.
At any rate, I continue to post what, to me, are simple answers to the questions posed by the professor, only to receive feedback from fellow students who say, “After reading your response, I finally get it.”
And there it sounds like I’m tooting my own horn again, but there is no way to share this without doing that. My point isn’t that I’m such a great writer. My point is that God gave me a gift in the area of writing, and I have learned, through many years of doing it wrong and taking note not to do that again, how to explain things and how to speak in ways that people can understand. I now see that all that God-given talent and hard work of honing my craft has brought me to this place so that right now, today, I can impact the lives of people across the country as they struggle to come to terms with some very difficult issues about God, life, suffering and evil.
So not only do I get to be part of what God is doing in these peoples’ lives, but I also get to see right away the effect my writing has on others, which is a fairly rare occurrence for writers.
So I just wanted to share this with my fellow bloggers – I read your blogs, so I know how talented you all are. Let me just assure you, your words are getting through. Keep doing it! You may not find out this side of heaven what the impact was, but the more you practice and the more humble and honest you become, the more God can use your skill for His kingdom and glory.
Blog on, my friends. Blog on.
(Yeah, I know, that last sentence was cheesy. I winced a little as I wrote it. But I’m just going to leave it there.)