Love Never Fails

I have spent most of my adult life trying to learn how to love. I just didn't seem to get it. I just didn't know how to do it. So my biggest prayer, my go-to request throughout my adult life, was, "Lord, show me how to love." But I never seemed to improve, and I...

Two Hands

I was praying today, frustrated because I see successful brilliant people in the news and wonder why I can’t be around more people like that - why instead am I a magnet to the needy and dependent and narcissistic? I could have been one of those brilliant people. I’ve wasted my life instead on people...

I Spoke

I think the past few years have been primarily about me finding my voice.  And getting myself and my kids to a place of emotional safety, of course, but none of that could have happened if I hadn't found my voice. Which is a little ironic, if you had known me for years, because there's...

So This Happened This Morning

The gentleman on the left is Josh, a sweet special needs man who is filled with joy and spreads it wherever he goes.  The gentleman on the right is Pastor Doug, the associate pastor of my new church, who had just finished preaching. At the beginning of the closing worship set Josh reached up and...

The Risk We Take To Love

So the emails and messages in response to my Facebook "bomb" the other day are still trickling in.  I'm up to 91 reactions and 118 comments.  I haven't even counted the messages and emails. And here's what I noticed - those who are cautious and simply say they will pray for the family tend to...

The Flood

Yesterday the last straw hit. A friend texted and wondered where I'd been at the worship team dinner the night before, because my husband had been there. Backstory: We were both told we had to step down from serving on that team when we separated last year. But for some reason he showed up at...

Not Rocking. Not This Boat.

Last week my world ended. At least, it felt like it at the time. I couldn't see how I could move forward.  I didn't want to live any more in this world because everything I thought it was based upon was looking like a lie. Let me tell you how I got from there to...

Sufficient Grace

I've been thinking about grace a lot lately. Coming to terms with my own sin in the past few weeks probably spurred this on.  And being sick and having nothing to do but think didn't hurt. At any rate, I was thinking about grace.  I think it doesn't get taught often enough from the pulpit....

Rocks, Quagmires, Gratitude, Wonder and Relief

I've been sick. I mean, really, really sick.  For about a week. I think the doctor called it acute pharyngitis, which sounds like a fancy way of saying "sore throat" but was oh so much more than that. So after a trip to urgent care where I received a nebulizer treatment and a prescription for...

Walking Out of the Weeds

I was packing books at my Mom's place last week, readying for The Move, when I was brought up short by the back of a book.  I didn't open it - I just glanced at the back, and apparently that was all the Holy Spirit needed to work with. The funny thing is I have...