Love Never Fails

I have spent most of my adult life trying to learn how to love. I just didn't seem to get it. I just didn't know how to do it. So my biggest prayer, my go-to request throughout my adult life, was, "Lord, show me how to love." But I never seemed to improve, and I...

Two Hands

I was praying today, frustrated because I see successful brilliant people in the news and wonder why I can’t be around more people like that - why instead am I a magnet to the needy and dependent and narcissistic? I could have been one of those brilliant people. I’ve wasted my life instead on people...

The Risk We Take To Love

So the emails and messages in response to my Facebook "bomb" the other day are still trickling in.  I'm up to 91 reactions and 118 comments.  I haven't even counted the messages and emails. And here's what I noticed - those who are cautious and simply say they will pray for the family tend to...

How Deep The Father’s Love For Us

A friend gave me a copy of this poem yesterday - I found in online and discovered it actually started in 1999 as a PowerPoint presentation written by Barry Adams at a church in St. Catharines, Ontario, Canada.  The response to it was so overwhelming, it was made into a video and a website was...

The Flood

Yesterday the last straw hit. A friend texted and wondered where I'd been at the worship team dinner the night before, because my husband had been there. Backstory: We were both told we had to step down from serving on that team when we separated last year. But for some reason he showed up at...

The Best Bad News I’ve Heard In A While

Yesterday my phone rang. It was my son's doctor. Or rather an assistant from that office, calling to tell me that since my sons latest blood test shows an autoimmune thyroid disorder, the doctor was prescribing Levothyroxine for him. My response was, "My son's what shows what??" Because no one had thought to actually give...

Sufficient Grace

I've been thinking about grace a lot lately. Coming to terms with my own sin in the past few weeks probably spurred this on.  And being sick and having nothing to do but think didn't hurt. At any rate, I was thinking about grace.  I think it doesn't get taught often enough from the pulpit....

Rocks, Quagmires, Gratitude, Wonder and Relief

I've been sick. I mean, really, really sick.  For about a week. I think the doctor called it acute pharyngitis, which sounds like a fancy way of saying "sore throat" but was oh so much more than that. So after a trip to urgent care where I received a nebulizer treatment and a prescription for...

Walking Out of the Weeds

I was packing books at my Mom's place last week, readying for The Move, when I was brought up short by the back of a book.  I didn't open it - I just glanced at the back, and apparently that was all the Holy Spirit needed to work with. The funny thing is I have...

Standing Up

Counseling has been getting real these days.  My counselor called me on my constant referral to "the terrible wounds" that have resulted from my marriage and asked me to define them. Off the top of my head, I couldn't. Partly because I had stuffed them into a deep dark hole so I wouldn't have to...