Grief. And Online Articles That Read Like A High School Essay Assignment.

I'm embracing the fact that I'm in grief.  My psychologist told me to pay attention and be mindful about it.  So instead of just writing down two things I'm grateful for each day, I'm also writing down two things that make me sad. Today's pithy thought was, "This break-up is stupid and there's nothing I...

I Spoke

I think the past few years have been primarily about me finding my voice.  And getting myself and my kids to a place of emotional safety, of course, but none of that could have happened if I hadn't found my voice. Which is a little ironic, if you had known me for years, because there's...

So This Happened This Morning

The gentleman on the left is Josh, a sweet special needs man who is filled with joy and spreads it wherever he goes.  The gentleman on the right is Pastor Doug, the associate pastor of my new church, who had just finished preaching. At the beginning of the closing worship set Josh reached up and...

The Risk We Take To Love

So the emails and messages in response to my Facebook "bomb" the other day are still trickling in.  I'm up to 91 reactions and 118 comments.  I haven't even counted the messages and emails. And here's what I noticed - those who are cautious and simply say they will pray for the family tend to...

How Deep The Father’s Love For Us

A friend gave me a copy of this poem yesterday - I found in online and discovered it actually started in 1999 as a PowerPoint presentation written by Barry Adams at a church in St. Catharines, Ontario, Canada.  The response to it was so overwhelming, it was made into a video and a website was...

The Flood

Yesterday the last straw hit. A friend texted and wondered where I'd been at the worship team dinner the night before, because my husband had been there. Backstory: We were both told we had to step down from serving on that team when we separated last year. But for some reason he showed up at...

Not Rocking. Not This Boat.

Last week my world ended. At least, it felt like it at the time. I couldn't see how I could move forward.  I didn't want to live any more in this world because everything I thought it was based upon was looking like a lie. Let me tell you how I got from there to...

Who Needs Psychology When You Can Get Affirmation in an Elevator?

Today I bought a new jacket and was wearing it to an appointment with a new psychologist, who seems to get where I'm coming from and is taking my situation seriously, unlike the leadership of my church who want to shove me into a "submit to your husband and all will be well" box and...

Of Irony, Karma and Tedious Nonsense

I haven't written in so long that I'm just going to have to let go of the desire to bring everything up to date. In the long run, the details of this separation, the shenanigans of my husband trying to manipulate his way back into the house, and the ensuing chaos really won't matter.  So...

The Best Bad News I’ve Heard In A While

Yesterday my phone rang. It was my son's doctor. Or rather an assistant from that office, calling to tell me that since my sons latest blood test shows an autoimmune thyroid disorder, the doctor was prescribing Levothyroxine for him. My response was, "My son's what shows what??" Because no one had thought to actually give...