The Flood

Yesterday the last straw hit. A friend texted and wondered where I'd been at the worship team dinner the night before, because my husband had been there. Backstory: We were both told we had to step down from serving on that team when we separated last year. But for some reason he showed up at...

At Sea, In a Good Way

I got side-swiped in therapy again today.  Only this time, in a good way. The counselor picked up where we left off last time - where we were all left hanging, rather -- and asked me to say how it felt when he kept making everything be about me and my problems.  So she did...

Surviving and Thriving

I've been reading a book recommended by a counselor: "Disarming the Narcissist: Surviving and Thriving with the Self-Absorbed" by Wendy T. Behary.  It's really helping. Because while on the one hand, it's not telling me anything new - I know exactly what a narcissist is like; I just didn't know that was what it was...

And God Will Give Life To Him

So there I was, sitting in church, trying to process the idea I wrote about yesterday, that God is angry about the damage done to me by the actions of others. The pastor started reading the text for the sermon, and all of a sudden I saw something I had never seen before. If anyone...

Sinners In The Hands of a Merciful God

A couple of weeks ago I wrote about realizing that God isn't mad at me, and He doesn't hold it against me, that I got myself into a situation where I'm being held back from doing things I could be doing.  That was a big relief - especially that part about Him not only UNDERSTANDING...