One Last “It’s All About Meeeee”

I recognize that this blog is quite self-serving. But I need to tell someone this stuff as I go through it, and my faithful 15 readers give me just the encouragement I need. Maybe all this will end up in a book someday. At least, that's what I tell myself to justify being so self-serving.... Continue Reading →

Love Never Fails

I have spent most of my adult life trying to learn how to love. I just didn't seem to get it. I just didn't know how to do it. So my biggest prayer, my go-to request throughout my adult life, was, "Lord, show me how to love." But I never seemed to improve, and I... Continue Reading →

Back To The Drawing Board

I'm back in therapy, dealing with the next stage of this journey, the highlights of which include my recent remembrances regarding the Gorilla and some of my ex's other personality-shards. That and the fact that my daughter got married last week and didn't invite her father. He doesn't even know she's married now. Also, did... Continue Reading →

Just For The Record

I hate VagueBooking and cryptic posts. Having said that, I'm in the middle of correcting 9 essays on Macbeth and a stack of homework on John Milton, so I don't have time to give the complete story.  But something has been changing, slowly at first, but picking up speed, and today I came to a... Continue Reading →

As The Pendulum Swings

So it's been a while.  Because school started, which has been amazing and fun and my students, yet again, are the most wonderful people on the planet and I can't wait to get to class to teach, share and discuss. But that leaves very little time for blogging. And I know, I know, my 8... Continue Reading →

Looking Forward

So, since yesterday's post, I've thought a little more.  I came up with a new picture.  In this one, I am letting go of the Giant Disappointment and reaching for the Shiny New Future. So I liked that at first, but then I realized, that's just setting me up for unmet expectations. That's pinning everything... Continue Reading →

Whine Number three

My heart is aching tonight.  I've just returned from a vacation, and nothing really went wrong, apart from circumstantial stuff with neighboring campers.  I've come to accept that stuff - people don't know how to behave any more.  People don't understand about community and neighbors and being considerate. But that's a topic for another post,... Continue Reading →

The Freedom in the Truth

Interesting, this whole being-able-to-speak-my-mind-freely thing.  It's starting to rub off.  I'm starting to get comfortable with saying exactly what I think. Even when I think people might look at me funny. This, now..... this is huge progress.  I was raised with shame-based discipline, and somehow my mother communicated to me that above all else, I... Continue Reading →

The Terror in Sharing

This is about the point, with this blog anyway, where I give up and delete the whole thing.  I've done it twice in the past, and both times convinced myself that it was out of loyalty to my friends and family. Right on schedule, that uneasy feeling crept up again after a few posts.  Once... Continue Reading →

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