I had some roses in a vase this week, cut from a bush in the back yard. Most of them had run their course and were starting to drop petals but there was one bud that hadn’t yet opened. When I went to throw out the overblown roses I noticed the water had evaporated and... Continue Reading →
Two Hands
I was praying today, frustrated because I see successful brilliant people in the news and wonder why I can’t be around more people like that - why instead am I a magnet to the needy and dependent and narcissistic? I could have been one of those brilliant people. I’ve wasted my life instead on people... Continue Reading →
Not Rocking. Not This Boat.
Last week my world ended. At least, it felt like it at the time. I couldn't see how I could move forward. I didn't want to live any more in this world because everything I thought it was based upon was looking like a lie. Let me tell you how I got from there to... Continue Reading →
Who Needs Psychology When You Can Get Affirmation in an Elevator?
Today I bought a new jacket and was wearing it to an appointment with a new psychologist, who seems to get where I'm coming from and is taking my situation seriously, unlike the leadership of my church who want to shove me into a "submit to your husband and all will be well" box and... Continue Reading →
New Life
We had our final meeting a few days ago. I did it. I spoke up. I said what I really wanted, which was an indefinite separation. I explained that this was based on what I knew to be true, not on what might happen down the road. I acknowledged that we serve a big God... Continue Reading →
Starting A New Chapter, Part 2
(Continued from Part 1) I have to admit, a few years down the road when I finally realized that things weren't going to change in a hurry, I got disappointed. Okay, maybe that's an understatement. I was devastated. It took a good year or so before I even realized this. I was going strong on... Continue Reading →
Starting A New Chapter, Part 1
I feel like a chapter of my life is coming to a gradual end. I am beyond thrilled about this, because it has not been an easy chapter. I'm so ready for the next one. I think it was in August of 2009 that this chapter started, five months after I was healed of Chronic... Continue Reading →