Blooming

I had some roses in a vase this week, cut from a bush in the back yard. Most of them had run their course and were starting to drop petals but there was one bud that hadn’t yet opened. When I went to throw out the overblown roses I noticed the water had evaporated and...

Two Hands

I was praying today, frustrated because I see successful brilliant people in the news and wonder why I can’t be around more people like that - why instead am I a magnet to the needy and dependent and narcissistic? I could have been one of those brilliant people. I’ve wasted my life instead on people...

Not Rocking. Not This Boat.

Last week my world ended. At least, it felt like it at the time. I couldn't see how I could move forward.  I didn't want to live any more in this world because everything I thought it was based upon was looking like a lie. Let me tell you how I got from there to...

Who Needs Psychology When You Can Get Affirmation in an Elevator?

Today I bought a new jacket and was wearing it to an appointment with a new psychologist, who seems to get where I'm coming from and is taking my situation seriously, unlike the leadership of my church who want to shove me into a "submit to your husband and all will be well" box and...

New Life

We had our final meeting a few days ago. I did it.  I spoke up.  I said what I really wanted, which was an indefinite separation. I explained that this was based on what I knew to be true, not on what might happen down the road.  I acknowledged that we serve a big God...

Starting A New Chapter, Part 2

(Continued from Part 1) I have to admit, a few years down the road when I finally realized that things weren't going to change in a hurry, I got disappointed. Okay, maybe that's an understatement. I was devastated. It took a good year or so before I even realized this.  I was going strong on...

Starting A New Chapter, Part 1

I feel like a chapter of my life is coming to a gradual end.  I am beyond thrilled about this, because it has not been an easy chapter.  I'm so ready for the next one. I think it was in August of 2009 that this chapter started, five months after I was healed of Chronic...